I still love you but i know i'll never forgive you.
& to me, loving does not necessarily mean forgiving.

goodbye and thanks for everything.

hi i'm using my phone to blog now. In LT4 doing prj work. Sucks cos more than half my group's absent hahaha

The last time i saw Ron was yesterday afternoon & although we contact each other from the moment we wake up till the moment we sleep, i still miss him very often.

This has been going on since 4 may 2008.

I was referring to how much we actually contact each other. Idk how some of my friends can not message their bf/gf for like an hour or more. Ron & i only don't message/call each other if either of us has something really impt on or something that is troublesome for contact. Eg. exam/ church/ swimming/ overseas (even then we still contact quite often).

People say i've grown overly-dependent on my boyf.
I agree, but its hard to change.
& i think i don't wanna change.

Becos i really love him & just one slight change will result in a major adjustment to my life.

PICTURES

Two days ago Ron & i went to try out Juju Hokkaido hotpot!!!
It was freaking good, better than what the teevee ad actually described.

Alot of sauces!! We were supposed to mix them all together according to the various proportions individuals prefer.
Gotta comment on the service like NOW. The service was frekaing good!
They were patient in their explanation and... you'll see later on in the post!!

Oh anw, it was a 6 course hotpot so we are entitled to:
Starter...
The semi-boiled seasoned eggs was the best i ever tried!
the middle lie the fish & on the right, tofu!



It costs about 25 per person & its damn worth the money.
I'm prepared for another round of juju seriously!

After the starter we can all choose a main dish each.

I chose Ocean Pacific seafood platter (consists of crabs prawns scallops fish etc)

& ron chose premiun beef platter (DAMN NICE!)

But i still think the seafood platter was more value for money

The manager who had always attended to us offered to take pictures for you throughout our meal! haha

At the start when we entered, the manager asked why we came here for..

We told him that it was an informal celebration for our 14th month.

& before we left, he lit this candle on the brownie in front of us and surprised us w a complimentary slice of brownie! haha

Anw, we were also entitled to side dish, plum vinegar (damn good!) and dessert.

Oh anw this is the bandage skirt my sis bought from supre for me in aussie!!
<3 supre alot srsly.

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The next day (which was yesterday), Ron went to pick me up at my place.

We cabbed down to town for his hair appt before we cabbed again to Raffles Hotel.

We were pretty early for the wedding so we went around taking pictures, and slacked at the bride's hotel room for quite some time. I was killing time playing bejeweled and taptap on ron's iPhone lol.

I think ron looks good in his new hair :)

Victor's the best hairstylist srsly!

Anw i love this pair od croc-skinned charles & keith heels.

Pretty comfortable for 4.5 inch heels.

I think ron looks better w the suit & tie on!!

Anw it was his sister's wedding hahahahahha

toilet!

His big sis Jenny.

I sat in b/w her and Ron :)

Like this!

I feel pretty honoured being able to sit w Ron's family.. afterall i'm not a family member etc.

I know of friends' friends whereby they have to sit alone behind! I'd rather not go srsly..

The sovenieur was damn nice!

Ron : can i wear specs? i cannot see the video and the food.

hahahahahaha wear specs also need to ask!

ok running out of captions

After the dinner, i went back to Ron's place w his parents & stayed over.

The nest morning was good! We went to the nearby supermarket to purchase groceries.

I decided to cook Seafood Tom Yum soup for him.

hahhaa you know someth? Whatever i cook, the first try is always the best.

The subsequent attempts usually won't be as nice ( don't believe ask ron).

Thats why i always wna try new things.

Crabs, King Prawns, Oyster Mushrooms, Clams!

As usual, he loved it ;)

So cute!!

This stayover was probably one of the bests!

updates

Today:

Went to play 2 hours of badminton w Ron. I won 4 games & he won the last one.
I swear he didn't let me win intentionally, i'm just pro ;D HAHA
Bumped into Rachel!! PL track senior. Haha we played badminton tog too.

Tomorrow:

Early 'celebration' w Ron; our 14th month together!
Can't believe it's already been more than a year :)
We don't really 'celebrate' so formally now since we're alr tog for quite some time alr.
But we'll just go out and have a nice meal hehe.


Saturday:

Tuition in the morning w Val, then Irfan will come to my place to return my electric guit,
then Ron will come pick me up & we'll cab to town!
We'll be gg Wisma for his hair appt, i'm still considering whether i shoud DIY or let Victor do Ron's hair tog w mine..
Raffles Hotel for Ron's sis's wedding then i'll stayover at Ron's place!


So i won't be blogging till sunday, COME BACK FOR ALOT ALOT OF PICS!

http://www.facebook.com/ext/share.php?sid=97431459587&h=6w70O&u=cyq2_&ref=mf

intentionally muted, hilariousss!
Thats my bf ( i think ) HAHA

love = pain

It sure sucks to know the truth only after more than a year.

I'll deal w the lies myself, i'll tolerate, not blow matters up as usual, and i'll shut up about it, i'll also suffer in silence while my heart's pieces slowly try to fix & mend themselves back whole again.
I'll try...

I sound foolish, immature, weak, vulnerable, sensistive, like any other typical girl who are crazily in love, those girls whom i used to criticised, scorn and jeer at. Now i know what it is like to really torment myself while others think i'm just silly.

Maybe i'll just deal w the issue as a fact that all men are the same, instead of torturing myself thinking that it's a lie. Maybe i'll feel better? OKay no maybes.. I WILL forget it, i'll pretend i've never come to known about it, i'll not bring it up ever again.

No promises made.
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edit/

Was just talking to Jonathan on msn & we decided to study Econs tog since its the only common subject both of us take (he's a science student).
But we later found out that we only have 1 subject that is different!!!
He takes H2 Chemistry, i take H2 Literature.
Other than that, GP, H1 Math, H2 Econs, H2 History..
SAME!

Cool shit we've never seen each other in lectures!

Tdy's much better!!! Math results was really good cos i scored pretty well. But if val didn't score w me i still feel that something's lacking!!! We're both aiming vry high for promos :)

So far i've only been returned 3 papers & the results are already devastating!!!


ONLY 15 FUCKING POINTS
depressing really :(

i hope to hit 20 at least LOL
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B3!

B2 + B3!! (L)

this pic is damn cool idk why

we camwhored until the photographer damn pissed hahahahaa

scenario based training w groups B1/2

CAMP ASPIRE PICS
Haven't recieved those from the photographers but these few are from my phone.
Sry for the lousy quality hahaha.


MeiYing!!
The only other talkative one in my group hahaha.

People who slept near me!
Nadiah (shooting capt) MeiYing (Guzheng vice) Pree (Yoga pres) PeiXuan (House.leader) Joel (Track capt) (scandalous ah, PX & Joel!! At night sneak out tog hahaha)


Hazirah! (Pilates pres) from B2
haha we actually showed each other our Pilates/Yoga moves hahahahaha

Shit forgot her name sry!!!!
Pree & Jonathan (Choir pres) from B2

My Group! (initial group)
We later temporarily merged w B2 for games but things were well and it seemed as if we merged till the end hahahaha.

Jiayi (N.society pres), SiQin (Podium), MeiYing (GZ), Grace (GZ pres), Pree

lotsa more coming up!

Camp ASPIRE

Although camp ASPIRE wasn't as fun as i thought it would be,
i still enjoyed myself alot!
My group was rather pathetic cos more than half was either qurantined or absent.
We consist of 5 girls, 4 science, 1 arts- me.
3/4 of the girls were reserved and quiet and i had quite some difficulty having them to open up.
Afterall, its a camp held for top leaders in srjc, idk why they're so shy!

We're grouped according to the nature of our CCAS.
Hazirah (President of Pilates) & I had no idea why we weren't grouped together!!!
I was w CCAS like Guzheng, Podium etc. lol

The first day was torture, 6 hours of solid theory before we completed leadership package 1 & 2.
The second day was fun! Has scenario-based training and i was paired w Cecilia (President of Guitar).

By the second day i have already forged friendships money cannot possibly buy.
Especially when my group had to temporarily merge w B2 (we are B3).
We became very close to B2 since we were of similar status and also had attended the scenario based trainings and leadership packages together.
eg. Jon (Choir pres), Sean (S*STAR pres), and MeiYing (Guzheng vice-pres).

At about 2am it was left w Earnest MeiYing & myself 'illegally' chatting when almost everyone asleep. 'Illegal' cos earnest crossed the 'gender barrier' HAHA and Joel also came over to cuddle w PeiXuan (so sweet!).
Anw, the teachers suddenly came in to wake everyone up and since 2am we had never slept again cos we had intensive challenge training till 7am.

Imagine! 3 nights, less than 8 hours of sleep.
Now, i'm waiting for Ron to meet me before i nap on his lap again hehehe ;)


(will upload pictures once i recieve all of them!)

i am suddenly nervous for camp aspire!

I went ECP w Ron yesterday again!!
As usual, i had damn alot of fun.
These kinda impromtu beach trips w Ron has always been the best!

damn unglam haha! i was arguing w ron which way the underpass was :D
i think?

2 straws for big gulp!

we rented a bicycle. YES, ONE ONLY.

cos he insisted we should try the double bicycle!

Freaking embarassing and i was damn freaked out cos Ron rides super fast :o

anw, bumped into Terence!!! He sprayed water at us using some massive water gun hahaha.

I miss Tim suddenly! We really need to catch up w Joyce etc one day hahaha.

damn sweaty and disgusting. idk how i actually plucked up the courage to still go parkway!

dinner was freaking good, as usual again.

We initially only planned to orden oyster omelette and wanton mee,

but while ron was away i went to order stingray to surprise him.

coincidentally he came back w clams as a surprise too!

hahaha

baby's favourite!

like this pic alot hehe

i was just hoping to spend more time w ron since i'm gna be away for 3 days in a school leadership camp very very soon

and tomorrow morning ron's gna come to my place to help me pack my wardrobe and choose a gown for me to wear for his sis's wedding

haha gna pack for camp now byeeeee!

(still searching for to-do list and neither krish nor friedrich has it!!)

Ron's coming back tomorrow from his church camp at Malacca and i seriously cannot wait to have myself in his arms again.
I miss his embrace, his kisses, his spasm, his jokes, his everythinggg!!
Its only been 4 days but i already started suffering the moment he left SG.
I was just telling April the other day that, i've overly reliant and dependent on my boyf.
I'm accustomed to have him do everything for me and i even had to think how i could get home from cityhall w/o him by my side.
Yes, its that serious.. becos all the time, no matter who i'm out with, he'll be there waiting for me to send me home no matter the time, and no matter the venue.
Gosh its only after 1 year plus that i'm starting to appreciate these small little things my boyf does for me.
Ron promised me he will try his best to contact me as much as he can although he's overseas and he certainly did so. At least i still get to hear his voice a few times everyday.
But idk why his absence makes me cry unwillingly and unknowingly.
I don't wna be sucha crybaby and idk how i actually got through the past of not seeing him for our record breaking 5 days (till now!!)
That was during my O levels, then my 5-day trip to perth, and now his 5-day trip to malacca.

At least, this tormenting ordeal will end tomorrow.

i think tdy was the best day out w my friends since JC ever started for me, seriously.


Cos.. I met Bernard Chan drummer of A.A the most-cock-person i know.
I'm damn happy that we still contact each other since we both have our relationships and also school.
Seriously, its pretty hard to find sucha good friend like berny.
I've known him for about... close to 2 years (yes time flies!).

Then April joined us later in the day after her work.
The combination of Berny, then April, in a day,
was... just perfect!

Two such good friends = satisfaction.
& i haven't felt this way since school started (hahaha damn serious).
Besides Ron, few can make my day so good.!

Berny!

You know, he grown so damn much. He's like 1.83m now !!!
nice sole hehe

he insisted i sit on that scary glass thing that said " no leaning on glass panel" urghh

I LOVE THIS PICTURE!!

hehe

Anw, we spent the afternoon chatting like crazy, eating subway for lunch at 3pm (ok not really lunch) and pissing librarians off by camwhoring. hahaha

so bo pian but to go rooftop to take pictures!
there was once when i went out w berny, that we stayed up this rooftop for pretty long.

w raman too! haha

LOVE THIS TOO HAHA

i look really unglam in the next two pics but for his sake...

LOOKS AT BERNY CHAN HAHAHA ACT COOOL!

we just wanted the sg flyer at the back LOL

berny likes this pic alot but i think we both look like morons hahahha

"cool sia this is gna be my wallpaper!" thats what he said

"pris, must be glam one ah" i swear i tried. but you know pree... hahaha

no editting!

anw, we went to meet april and both of us girls had starbucks while berny just wanted gloria jeans! (he sat in starbucks though)

april and myself walked for hours around cityhall and talked non-stop (srsly we never run out of topics!!)

So i'm gna meet april again damn soon. maybe thurs.

& we're gna camwhore at orchard instead hehehehehe.

i think berny looks good here haha

we stacked books just to put the camera in a correct height LOL

i love this hehe

he's reading some lit book!
"why they always say the same thing one ah? SA DI SA DI"
" -.- thats their names"

"i was just testing you!"

hahahaha ass

You know, the best thing you can ever have w a friend is feeling comfortable in front of him/her.

& thats what Berny/April possess.

Blood the last vampire

Anw this was a pic taken yesterday,
i bought this Dorothy perkins Zebra print dress on impulse,
damn waste of money!
Gna sell it off on Rachael's blogshop soon, alongside w alot of my other stuff!
Will keep you guys posted, pls support k.

OH YES, congrats to dearest Rachael, she got through the first round of SG idol!!
:) <3

Today was kinda bad w the exception of being the new owner of Taptap domination's extreme level high scorer on Ron's iPhone ;)
hahahahahha can't help it i'm just too good at it :D :D
(learnt all this boasting from Yawn)


We were at fareast eating lunch, and as mentioned, the day was really bad cos.
Two china girls damn rude and they pissed me off!!! urgh
wanted to be a total bitch by spilling something on one of them but she walked off damn quickly hahaha i know i'm damn childish whatever.

Then the weather was freaking humid and warm and we were perspiring urgh.
Went to Watsons to get some powder wipes.



Then we caught the movie Blood the last vampire (it was M18-totally PG).
SECOND WORST MOVIE I EVER WATCHED!
(still cannot be worse than The Strangers LOL)

k the colour's really bad

but i still love my new camera

really

see, it produces nice pictures!

This wasn't editted at all hehe.

the april pose, miss april yeap!

K gna watch some midnight movie w dad now.

One more day till Ron goes overseas :(